"If it made me smile once, I will never regret it."

"I don't randomly stop talking to people. Everything I do has a reason to it. I just don't want to tolerate anymore. Don't be quick to jump on the "I don't forgive" conclusion, because I do, I always have. But there's only so much you can push someone around. In certain cases, I acknowledge my mistake." 
To friends who are no longer friends - Dec, 2011.

You need to understand that I simply applied the famous Lauren’s line: “I want to forgive you and I want to forget you.” It’s important that I emphasize on the fact that it’s not the first time that I forgave you, I did so multiple times before but I have my limits. I can’t keep forgiving someone who keeps making the same mistakes repeatedly. What’s worse is that those issues were being discussed on several occasions throughout our friendship years. To be honest, you know what really triggered it this time? I was going through something and I realized that I don’t need this negativity anymore so I decided to remove everything negative in my life. Without sounding too heartless and with utter frankness, I don’t regret it.

“People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.”

Sometimes, I miss you and the friendship we had. We had truly awesome moments together and I only hope that one day, when you’ll look back, you’ll never find yourself regretting those moments because I truly don’t. I figured the reason why you came into my life and I understand why you didn’t stay longer. But you need to know something; I don’t hate you and if someday you need to talk to someone, more precisely a stranger because I heard that sometimes talking to a stranger can make you feel better, know that I am here because there is a little part of me that still cares for you. 

I don’t miss you at all. I know why you came into my life, it was simply to make me stronger and that’s it. I can’t even begin to measure the extent of how I seriously don’t give a crap about your life there and even you. To some degree, my friends were right and looking back, I ask myself how the fck could I be so blinded? You didn’t love me, you loved the idea of me and when you finally got me, you got bored. You didn’t even give me the time to show you that I could make you happy. But I don’t regret it, the experience was worth it. You showed me that assholes exist solely to teach you a lesson.

My point is this: whoever said “What you don’t know can’t hurt you”, was a complete and total moron. Because for most people, not knowing is one of the worst feelings in the world. - Grey’s Anatomy

I stumbled on this quote the other day and you were the very first person who popped in my mind. I will never forget what happened because to this day you never told me why you did it. I heard from her but that’s it. I want to hear it straight from you, in order to forget it. I need to forget in order to close that fcking door because don’t forget you’re the one who opened that door, not me. If you bothered to open the door in the first place, I don’t think it’d be too hard to simply close it right? I see how happy you are, I am happy too, don’t think that I’m all depressed or sad. I just need to hear it once that’s all. "Is that pathetic ? maybe!!! but i deserve to know the reason from you." - Closure, Oct 2012

To all of you: I will not apologize for how I feel or what I did, these are my feelings and saying sorry is like saying sorry for being me, for being real.. But without you guys, I wouldn't be where I am right now. You all had a specific purpose, good and bad, in my life and I can only thank you. Because where I am right now, I couldn't be happier.