Getting out of the frame has enlightened me. Weirdly and surprisingly, I've reached a whole new level now. It's like, if we were to take an example of a product cycle as a scale, I'd be on the last and final stage of the cycle.
Initially, I used to be upset, fed up, and even a little bit betrayed indirectly. I felt bad at the same time and wondered how I could feel so angry. Then, after a few months, I started feeling neutral about it and decided to stop feeling angry, I stopped holding on to those negative feelings. I didn't feel good either though, I was just like on the saturation mode, to the extent that I just couldn't be bothered at all. Afterwards, I stepped on this new stage where I started to see things differently and positively and began to feel truly grateful for all the good and bad things that happened. It is really a different state of mind... much better.
Finally, I got out of the frame and have now reached this level where I ask myself, "Do I want to go back to this?" And I find myself wanting only one thing, turning the page. Not burning the old one, just folding it and keeping it in a safe place. I might look back at if a few times but that's just it...
I have this new book that I have to take care of and bringing back this old book, including you, I cannot and do not want to do that... I did it recently, mixing those two books and it was fun and nostalgic but so weird for me. I couldn't take that old book and stick some of its pages into the new book or vice versa... I badly wanted to do it, but couldn't... Man, how I wish it could work...People might think I'm being skeptical or pessimistic, but no, I guess this is just a new version of me...
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